I think having a 3 year old has humbled me more than anything else in my life. I love Jacob with all my heart...but sometimes I see the things he does, or rather the way he can spontaneously combust, and think "Who's kid is this?". The angry comments, outbursts, defiance and emotions have been a real struggle for me lately. Thankfully I have wonderful friends who still spend time with us even though Jacob has been having a hard time getting along nicely. I am now on the other side of the moment when I see a mother in the store with a freaking out kid...I am now in that club.
I cant tell you how many times I have called my sweet mom on the verge of tears with no idea of what to do with my boy. She always tells me not to take it personally...and I love her for that. I have NO idea how she made it through with her wits in tact and wonderful sense of humor after raising 8 kids. I am also incredibly blessed to have a husband who I can call at work and talk to, and take those moments of time for me so that our home feels happier even when he is not there. Today was a day full of grumpiness, whining, tantrums, screaming and disobedience...but there were some pretty sweet moments in between. Our funny little car conversations about rocket ships and asking me to go "turbo speed"...well, actually he called it "turtle speed", but we decided to correct him that it was "Turbo speed" (thank you Star Wars) and we had a good chuckle. I also learned today that he remembers my favorite color, Michael's favorite, my moms favorite color as well...and that taking him from store to store in one day is officially a thing of the past. Its one of those days when I feel at peace knowing he is asleep in the other room and not crumbling play dough all over the carpet. He has been so attached to me lately, from the moment he wakes up he says "I just want to be with ya, Mom"(that is, until he is in trouble and does not want anything to do with me, haha), which only happens for a small period of time - so I should enjoy it...and thankfully I have a night of quiet to prepare me for tomorrow :).
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I am just entering that struggling mom's group. Hooray early terrible twos! At least Edana is still pretty small which = not alot of strength to the hitting, kicking and pushing. :)
Good for you at recognizing the good parts of those days! I have the HARDEST time with that! I typically generalize the whole day as "bad" but I need to be better at acknowledging those moments. Thankyou for being a good example of that for me...and all of us I'm sure!
This makes me feel better to know that I'm not the only one who has hard days sometimes.
Oh! Hang in there Ruth! And just so you know, we love Jacob and so does Kayla. She does love playing with him too!
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